Life is full of paradoxes and balancing them is something that I constantly strive for. It’s something I’ve been thinking a lot about lately. I think that’s why I love yoga so much; it’s chock full of paradoxes. I’m going through yoga teacher training this summer and last weekend we learned about something called dialectic, which is the “inquiry into metaphysical contradictions,” or that constant internal debate in your head. eg: You want safety, but you also want freedom. You want friends but you also want to be alone. You want to be healthy, but you also want an entire box of cookies. I’m fascinated with it because I think it completely embodies the human experience and how we make things so difficult.
I’m currently experiencing my own dialectic: I want a high paying job that utilizes my degree, but I also want the freedom to follow my passions uninhibitedly. I recently got rejected for a job that I was really invested in and now I’m questioning myself…what do I really want to do with my life? Honestly, I have no clue.
I’m the same person as I was before I got the rejection email, but now I’m suddenly plagued with self doubt. Not in a bad way, but in a “what the hell do I do next” kind of way. It’s crazy to me how one small thing can happen and completely rock your world. It just goes to show that contentment is a product of thoughts.
If you’re in the same boat as me, just know: no decision is the wrong decision and the worst thing you can do is nothing. I really like this quote by Deepak Chopra:
“If you obsess over whether you are making the right decision, you are basically assuming that the universe will reward you for one thing and punish you for another.
The universe has no fixed agenda. Once you make any decision, it works around that decision. There is no right or wrong, only a series of possibilities that shift with each thought, feeling, and action that you experience.
If this sounds too mystical, refer again to the body. Every significant vital sign- body temperature, heart rate, oxygen consumption, hormone level, brain activity, and so on- alters the moment you decide to do anything… decisions are signals telling your body, mind, and environment to move in a certain direction.”
― Deepak Chopra, The Book of Secrets: Unlocking the Hidden Dimensions of Your Life
I don’t know if it’s a mid-twenties dilemma, but figuring out life right now is hard. It’s like going to a restaurant with too many options. I get overwhelmed and then I can’t pick anything, but I guess that’s the beauty of life in America.
Are you struggling or have you struggled with a dialectic before? What’s your experience? I’d love to hear them!